I am glad to be a mother. I do not think, however, that my being a mother makes me better than other women who are not either by choice, circumstance or biology (or quite honestly, at times I believe: sheer brilliance). Happy women day.
Let's move on. You're welcome.
Well, no, back up but just for a second or two. OK, a minute. My husband Dan and I have three boys: Thing 1 (14), Thing 2 (11), and Thing 3 (8). The timing is exquisite for their birth spacing, wouldn't you say? Well, it's all about pharmaceuticals. For me, being a mother is about knowing my limitations and having three kids under 5 in four years would have landed me in the looney bin. Being a mom is exhaustingly enriching. It's all the stuff you would imagine and more.
I was lamenting Friday to my husband that I don't have a paying job: when you have one of those, you have performance reviews and feedback and assessments and teamwork. When you're a mother, a sign of success (or luck) is going months without a call from school, or the fact that your kids don't really beat the crap out of each other and that screaming is occasional rather than a symptom of existence.
It's the little surprises however that make it even more exciting than say, sitting on your own with a ball of yarn and knitting it. Or maybe, it's the coming out of the shower to a screaming child holding his head and scrying (omigawd, that's a word -- "scrying" is a word, I was just blending "screaming" and "crying" -- it means "foretell the future using a crystal ball or other reflective object or surface." - who knew? gypsies, that's who... I digress, completely), "hedidthistomehehit meintheFACE witha witha witha aa BLAD OOIH BFS and then he AATAWAGATROW. . . . mama mama mama mmmm maaaa aaaaMMomm mmyyyy. Fix it...Kiss the boo-boo..."
Get back to the title. Back to the title. "When the Bough Breaks" - "bough" is a branch, a main branch of a tree.
Ok. So, we have a weeping cherry tree. I am like the Lorax, I do speak for the trees. I'm not a tree-hugger, I don't camp out in them, but I completely admire those who do. I appreciate their love and respect for our planet. I don't let burly men in spike boots climb my majestic oak tree to take off a few limbs here and there. We throw the big money at the Big Tree because she deserves it. She's probably as old as my own mom, who's 78.
This morning, when I was woken out of a great dream by three young minstrels and their fantastic dad for my annual "You're The Best Mom" ritual, I had a chat with Thing 2 about the tree.
Life has this completely WONDERFUL way of showing us how to make lemonade out of lemons. We just have to be willing to do some squeezing because the juice is what makes it tasty; sugar can sweeten tobacco, but that doesn't mean I want to drink it. And lemons are good for our liver!
As we spoke about the tree, it dawned on me that it presented a great parable about forcing and breaking rules, what happens to the innocent when we do, and how our seemingly small or self-important choices (good or bad) can affect the world, or in this case, an ecosystem.
1) Thing 2 forced that tree to be something it's not: he forced it to be a playground. A perch for his "Wolverine" character development. It's not supposed to be his Wolverine perch, it's a tree. Forcing it to be something else broke it. Forcing anything will break it. This is a law of physics.
2) Breaking the rules a few times and getting away with it will falsely empower us to think it's OK to continue to break the rules; it emboldens us. That because it we get away with it once, say drinking and driving, then we think we can do it again. We can't because . . .
3) Innocent people or objects get broken in the process. Our vanity, our drive to be something more, different than others, better or something other than What We Are hurts innocents. I'm all about play and imagination and Wolverine, as long as we play by the rules and don't break them. Because when we break them, we break a part of us too.
4) The ecosystem has been changed because of his actions. The bird family who used that tree to live in, now have less cover from predators. Our pleasure at witnessing about 500-1,000 of its blossoms on That Branch every spring has been altered. The CO2 provided by that 20' branch has been eliminated. I'm not dwelling on it, I'm just mentioning it.
The things we do, the forcing, affect everyone.
It was a good talk. He seemed to really get it and he wept for a moment, heaving big to him, wee to me, 75# sighs and flubbers of remorse and squeaky words expressing regret.
It was a good talk for me too. It helped me to be a better mother. Because we had company last night, I had to dial back my reaction and my sadness over the incident. I realized that my ego was playing a bigger part than it (ever) should. Instead of feeling bad about the tree, I felt selfish about my son not listening to me, about his flagrant disobedience. This is not about me, this is not about him. This is about us. We are a team.
Looking back with 18-hour vision I appreciate it. Honestly, if this is the worst thing he does, we are very fortunate.
I have the bestest dude: he just returned from an errand with a bouquet of tulips and a no-whip green tea frappucino. My Drink of Glee.